The One who Wants to See

When I was growing up, I was very imaginative. I was always playing weird games outside, pretending that I was a deer in a forest or that my playhouse was really a castle in an enchanted kingdom. I was always looking up at the sky and marveling at the clouds. A rainstorm meant the chance to dance down the street barefoot and take in the fresh, clean, air. I almost remember feeling as though I was a part of all that was around me. I remember talking to God then, too. A lot.

I was also very creative. I've loved music and art as long as I can remember. I remember sharing my creativity most with my stuffed animals, pets and imaginary outdoor friends. It's a shame, because none of them ever asked to see what I was doing. They just sat, motionless, and let me show them. I guess that was enough when I was a child. I was aware that I had something special to share. A picture, a painting, a poem... but, sadly, I didn't get much feedback.

As I grew into an adult, there were no longer toys and pets to look at the things I created. I ended up hiding them away and, in some cases, dismissing them altogether.


I've learned recently, through a lot of soul searching and discontent, that there is One who wants to see all of those things. He put them there, you see. He has tugged, ever so gently on the creative parts of my heart for a very long time, as if to remind me that we used to dance in the rain together when I was young and that the beautiful ideas I had as a child were truly from Him.
It's as though He's waiting for me with a huge smile that says, "What's that you have? Can I see?"

Fear has kept me from pursuing creative endeavors. It's not fear of failure so much as fear of success! It's so much easier, and less painful, to keep it inside.
God is teaching me to stop putting so much stock in what people think and reminding me that He won't reject me and He wants to see what I can do for His glory through the creativity that came from Him in the first place.

I'm not entirely sure why I decided to blog on this, but I hope it will resonate with another creative spirit that needs encouragement to reach into the dark places where they've hidden all that is beautiful about them.

Take it out and share it with the One who wants to see.